Is reconnection even possible after decades of unresolved trauma?

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There I am sitting on the couch in my therapist’s office bawling my eyes out. I don’t often let her see how much pain I’m in, mostly because my day is ruined once I give in to my inner despair.

Why are so many people calling for the cancellation of all student loan debt, especially Neurodiverse people like me?

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As of this post, my federal student loan balance is $68,147 and because of my income and my family size (2), I’m on an income-based repayment plan and my payment per month is $0. The degree I managed to achieve? An A.S. in Accounting, in 2016. …

Especially during a worldwide pandemic with social distancing.

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I remember my first foray into MMORPGs (massively multiplayer online role-playing games, for those not familiar with the terminology).

And this doesn’t mean I’m not listening.

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I never liked when someone told me to look them in the eye. For me, it wasn’t something I could handle and the whole situation caused me great anxiety.

There are a few key differences you’ll want to keep in mind with your loved one.

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You might be wondering, if our needs aren’t that different from a relationship between two neurotypical people, why this article?

Direct & Targeted Communication

Your autistic friend, family member, or partner will most likely have a preference for how they like to communicate.

Or any other part of them... and Aphantasia is to blame.

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“Why do you always take so many pictures?”

And our relationship paid the price.

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Whenever an opportunity came up for my mother to disparage my father, she would call him a loser, an alcoholic, and a bastard. She was 17 when I was born; he was 22. She told me that when I was 7 months old, she came home and caught him having sex with her best friend. Also that at one point he held her against the wall, choking her.

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As an autistic person who wasn’t diagnosed until adulthood, I’m able to look back at my past relationships and see all the ways both my partner and I failed to understand and connect.

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I told my friends and family months ago, on Pride Day, that I am interested in women. The funniest response was from my youngest sister, who simply said, “Yeah, and?” I appreciated their complete acceptance of what I said because this realization of mine came after thinking over my history and talking in therapy. I have a complicated history and my “not knowing” stems from stuff I won’t get into here.

One of the best times my son and I have together is when we watch a movie together. We sit on the couch and have a huge bowl of popcorn. Spending this time together has become precious, not only because my son is already 11 and has his own interests, but because the way we relate to each other during the movie amuses me.

Kitty J

Autistic Woman. Mother. Romance writer. Abuse Survivor. Dealing w/cPTSD, hEDS & POTS. Always learning & questioning. A quiet human slowly reparenting herself.

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