And your issues will get in the way if you don’t work on them!
At just shy of 7 months, my newest relationship has ended. By the end of it, I had learned quite a few things about myself, such as:
- I’ve been dissociating, probably since I was a child, which might explain my extreme memory loss.
- I am not past the trauma of my rape, by any stretch of the imagination, because during a 48 hour dissociation, I broke up with my boyfriend — the first time.
- I have disorganized attachment and severe trust issues.
- I’ve been severely depressed, probably all my life, and am now taking medication… again.
- Having said medication end the ‘abusive’ constant stream of chatter inside my head and learning a lot of my beliefs revolved around feeling unloved and unwanted which leads to…
- Realizing my mom probably dissociated as well all her life and despite her insistence it was my 16 month old brother at the time, it was probably in fact my mother who ‘threw me away’ when I was 2 months old. I was found in the kitchen trash a few hours later, sound asleep.
Yeah…
Why did we break up for good? Well, my partner was a good and kind man who was very patient with me. Unfortunately, he also has more of an avoidant attachment and…
